Shaken, but only slightly stirred
Bit of a heavier ramble for this one! Wanted to wait well after the fact before I potentially reflected for myself on things, but as the craving for working on my site has come back I've found myself wanting to chat about it in this little space too. Possibly part of the healing process or maybe just cause it's still lingering in my brain, who knows. :P
Little over a full week ago though I'd been in a car crash. And before that my grandmother had breast cancer surgery. And before thAT my older sibling moved out of the house for the first time. Aaaand around that me and my mom both have had all kinds of different work stressors- with her trying for new positions and myself just laboring through a lot of troubleshooting and semantics to get in to the place I'd worked at back in the fall again.
Nevermind all the looming external stressors in the world right now, needless to say this's been a very fucking stressful summer hLSKJDF
But we're still holding out unskathed as much as we can be! All of my grandma's different surgeries have went really well, and for my own self I'm still floored that I went unharmed save for some extensive bruising that left it hard to bend for a little bit. (Having to attend jury duty for my first time just 3 days after getting crunched by another car, AND the case be related to extreme traffic violations?? That sure is an experience. Small victory at least that said wreck excused me from having to be part of the jury the rest of that week LOL)
My last very brief journal had been about the release of Dawntrail for FFXIV. I was getting engrossed into the story just before the accident happened. And for a good few days after I was avoiding doing anYTHIng besides just mindless crafting work or watching my partner play the game via stream. When I finally picked the story back up though- and the npcs looked down at me where I left them last, I started sobbing. It was both a stressed and relieved cry all at once that despite what happened, I'm still here and can still get back into the swing of things <3
Story's been fucking great btw. It's hard to decide where to place it for me because so many expansions prior to this one bleed into one another as a continuous storyline (the post patch content for stormblood for instance feels intrinsically linked to the whole of base shadowbringers for example. Its hard for me to see them separate from each other.) Still though it's high up at the top for me!
Also game & mmo wise I've been REALLY antsy to do some more write ups for my vworlds shrine. Been watching a lot of neat essay videos for maplestory, and likewise gameplay vids for toontown, the latter of which I've been craving to play a bit of the Corporate Clash server again, so I may dip into the write up for that first :> Got some smaller games on steam I want to get to as well, like more of Horticular now that it's finally dropped in full~
Also I bought! A couch! That should be coming soON
I grew up for so much of my childhood with a pull out couch for a bed, that I've really missed having one in my own space. Definitely nice as an alternate option too from my loft bed if I'm feeling too anxious to sleep or have a guest over that'll need a spot for themselves.
It supposedly has built in LEDs of all things at the base too? That's such a pointless but cool feature HLSFKJ
I've also randomly been dabbling with crayons again just- because? I found a 64-pack crayola box from 2008 that is nearly untouched in my cupboard, and I just want to scribble with them. So that's what I've been doing just to slowly ease myself back into art again. Messing with that and other random art supplies at my desk with no real 'drawing' in mind to be made with them just to feel the movements again.
That and punch needle, since I got a cute kit of two coasters that still had one left for me to work on :)
I think that covers the gist of the past few months?? My partner's been coaxing me into a potential pokemon mystery dungeon mood as well, which made me realize having a pokemon shrine somepoint too would be nice just to ramble childhood memories and anecdotes related to that
Too many thiNGS
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